Countdown - on one hand!

It's Monday again and we are another week closer to the arrival of our baby boy. Just 5 weeks now! My dreams are becoming more vivid as the days pass, and sleep is becoming a bit easier too, possibly out of sheer exhaustion. Last night I dreamed that my husband was looking after the baby because I had to go to school. I was wearing my old EGGS school uniform and waiting for the bus in Newmarket, thinking to myself that this was bullshit, I shouldn't have to go to school when I have a small baby at home waiting for me. Then I suddenly realised - I've finished school! So I rang my husband and told him I was done with high school so I was coming home after all. It was quite a relief.

I think the appearance of my old school days in my dream world is due to my thoughts just before I went to sleep last night. I was calculating that it has been 12 years since high school finished. I wonder if that girl who spent the morning of the last day of school high on sleep deprivation, throwing toilet paper into trees around the school grounds and eggs at teachers' cars, as well as squirting water pistols at third formers, would be pleased with life now. She probably would have expected more. A house perhaps, a fancier car, some semblance of a real career, instead of a piecemeal one.

A house has become our next target, which, judging by our achievements to date, means it will happen and probably fairly soon. As I said in an earlier post, the pair of us tend to get our minds fixed on what we want and we achieve it pretty readily. I don't think a house is going to be any different, although to me right now it represents a new reality. We have not stayed in one place for longer than a year in the nine years we have been together. When we haven't been traveling, we have at least moved suburbs annually, trying out a new area. And we have always had plans of traveling, even when we were staying still. We still have a list of future destinations where we will likely try to travel to with a small baby (Japan is at the top of that list...I'm obsessed with the idea of Japan), but we are realistic that for now and for the next year at least, we are staying put.

Looking at a job website the other day, I noticed possible positions for my husband in Christchurch. Strangely, although I can't see us living there, the idea of moving filled me with excitement. Suddenly I was googling Akaroa and nearby areas where I thought we could settle. I was imagining cheaper land and houses due to the recent earthquakes (perhaps not the best reason to buy!). And then I thought to myself - wait, we have only been here three months. We really have to give situations a better chance to progress.

Buying a house would be a big step for us. It would mean staying in one place and making a real home. It would mean making purchases that are not just "for now" but forever...or nearly ever. And I guess this is really where we should be at, thinking long term, so that the little guy who likes to kick my ribs at night has some sense of stability in his life.

With the pregnancy, we have become more housebound and more interested in the idea of making a home. My husband has been trying his hand (very successfully!) at carpentry - his next project is a changing table for the baby. We have been talking about how nice it would be to have chickens and a goat in the back yard. I guess, like the title of this blog, we are finally getting all growsed up. And just in time too.